Now I know why I’m so addicted to my journal. It’s filled with all my rants and ramblings. Just because I wouldn’t want to bother another human with my rants, I’d rather bother my paper and let the world read about it later. I just turned 20 something and I can’t seem to bring myself to accept the stress and confusion that comes with adulthood.
I spent my whole childhood wishing I was older and now I’m spending my adulthood wishing I were younger. As human beings, we all mature physically from childhood to adolescence and then into adulthood, but our emotions lag. I had a wonderful childhood which is tough because it’s hard to adjust to a miserable adulthood.
There is so much to be gained from adulthood! Feelings just become so much deeper. The feeling of sadness and loss is much deeper than when you were a kid, but the feelings of love and happiness have also so much more dimension when you get older…. Part of adulthood is searching for the people who understand you. To most of us, adulthood means being able to earn a living, possess a home, get married and bear children, and this implies having autonomy over one’s life. But today we regard it more as a time of regret and stagnation.
You think that adulthood will hit and you’ll suddenly be more capable. But that doesn’t happen, does it? The secret of adulthood is that 99% of the time you know the right thing to do. We make it hard when we are deciding whether to do the right thing. I think one of the defining moments of adulthood is the realisation that nobody’s going to take care of you. That you have to do the heavy lifting while you are here. And when you don’t, well you’ll suffer the consequences.
Adulthood has its own good and exciting sides but most of the time, the negative sides of adulthood overshadow its positive and exciting sides. Well I think everything happens for a reason and all the things that have happened to me – good, bad – I’m glad they did. It’s made me ready for life, for adulthood.
I believe I owe all the best parts of my adulthood to embracing my imperfections and showcasing them.
But I don’t promise to stop ranting and rambling about being an adult. Trust me, its left me more confused everyday.
What are your rants and ramblings about adulthood?
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